scarface
3 weeks ago I was out riding my horse when she spooked and I came off, I was dragged 70m whilst remaining under her feet. I cracked a rib, punctured my lung, broke my nose, had major facial lacerations, broken teeth and some pretty amazing bruising. Once at hospital I had to have a pneumothorax to re-inflate my lung and was given a shed load of fluid to get my blood pressure up to something that was vaguely acceptable. Although I remained conscious throughout, I was in and out if lucidity.
People keep telling me I’m lucky to be alive – I don’t feel lucky, quite the opposite. I now have a scar that runs from just under my nose (off centre) down through my lip, part of my lip was severed from my face. I also have a 3 inch scar under my arm from the chest drain. This scar is partly on my breast and has altered the shape of my breast.
Nobody wants to know how i feel about the injuries, just how well im mending, and yes maybe I am on the outside but not on the inside.
My speech is affected – not great considering Im a teacher.
i feel so ugly and unattractive, i cant even smile. who is going to want me now?
i cant eat because of the injuries.
i just cry more and more, and now im getting angry too. i don’t know what to do