How to deal with the depression
I was in a bad car accident 3 moths ago. I hit another vehicle pretty much head on. I was alert the whole time during the crash so I remember everything . I broke my pelvis is 4 places, busted up my hip socket with hip dislocation, broke both my wrist, broke my heel, fractured ribs and vertebrae in my back along with bruises covering my body and a few gashes that required stitches . I had a 10 hr surgery to repair my pelvis and my hip and another surgery to put a plate in my left wrist. I wasn’t able to get out of the bed for over 2 months and even tho now I can only stand on one leg because I’m still waiting on my hip to heal enough for the Dr to release the no weight bearing from my right leg, I’m in a world of pain And I still can’t walk. I have my wheelchair but I am limited to how long I can sit before I’m in unbearable pain. Before the wreck I was a hard working welder. I was always a strong woman! Physically and mentally or at least I thought I was. Since the wreck I worry that I will never be that strong woman again. I’m so depressed and the pain really gets to me (Dr cut me off pain meds 6 weeks out) and being in a wheelchair all gets to me. I can’t even fake a smile. I only had in laws that were willing to take care of me but they all left me for my 17 yr old daughter to take care of by herself. My husband came back after a week but I always feel so helpless even tho I can do a lot for myself when the pain allows. I suffer from PTSD along aide of the depression . I just want to be myself again . Everyone tells me be strong , give it time blah blah blah . I know all this! But it doesn’t make me feel better ! Nothing makes me feel better anymore! I have always been the kind who loves to make people laugh And cut up but I feel like that part of me died in that wreck.