Does anyne else experience this after a severe TBI?
I won’t get into the gorey details because i simply don’t know how to. But i suffered a very severe (ICP hit 37) traumatic brain injury on december 8, 2014. i was in a medically induced coma for 3 weeks. the doctors told my parents i would not survive. then after a week, they said id be a vegetable for the rest of my life. i’m not. i was in the hospital for 29 days, after being told i was doing so well i did not need rehab. i should be dead. i should be severely disabled. i remember the morning of my accident, but don’t remember leaving my house. i was dreaming the whole time i was out. and then next thing i know, im waking up in the hospital. ever since my injury, i have such a hard time deciphering reality, from dream. when im driving, i question if im actually driving, or if i had been hit by a car while driving, and im actually dead but still going through the motions. my memory wasn’t terrible until i started repressing all of it. i read a new study that says that actively trying to forget a trauma (any kind) leads to increased difficulty in memory. i hate how differently i operate now. and i dont understand any of it. its been almost 2 years. im doing well otherwise; engaged to a man that was there for me during my whole accident, we have a beautiful little 6 month old daughter, and im finally in college (im 20) to get my degree. and i am thankful everyday that it happened. but it doesnt make it less difficult. i just dont know how to be in control of my brain again. does it ever get easier? what kind of therapy can i seek out? a regular therapist does not help for me. but i know i need help.
